Spot Me.

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I should`ve stayed there.

I got back from the States now. I really loved my stay there, it was hella awesome. I went to Chicago and D.C. My parents even asked me if I wanted to stay. Like study there till college. I told them I wanted to come back to Reedley first, finish my high school there. Then probably leave for college. When I was there, I wanted to come home badly. To see my friends again. I really missed them.

But I shouldn’t have left.

Since I got back, like Monday, I`ve been feeling like shit. I can’t say why here, but it really drove me nuts. I should`ve stayed. Now I miss Chicago like hell. More than ever. My first week back I`ve been thinking how much I miss last year. How it’s COMPLETELY different from this one.

I shouldn’t have came back.

I. want. out.

P.S. It`s Mio`s 6th Birthday In 12 days! July 18. Betcha he`s having fun in heaven. He`s gonna have an awesome party there. I miss him too.

Currently Listening Just Feel Better By Santana (Ft Steven Tyler) see related

Done With You

just when you thought you knew a person well enough to trust him and believe that he won`t hurt you..... he does.

i don`t know what to believe anymore. i think he thinks i`m stupid, that i`m oblivious with everything. no, i`m not. i find out things, things that sometimes are not even important, things that no other knows aside from me.. and things that end up hurting me.

maybe he thinks he can keep me AND all of his other chics. i`m not overreacting. i know what i saw. i check and make sure it`s just a friendly thing. but it`s not. my god.

i`m SPEECHLESS coz i`m sooo pissed off.

whatever.

i`m done.

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Youtube rocks my pantalons off

Currently Listening I Wish We All Could Win By The Afters see related

From the hospital I got ready and went to pick up Ina at her house to go to Jussy`s Surprise Party. Some of Jus` classmates arrived as well, my old batchmates from Miriam. Haha. Justine arrived, she got surprised. Really, she did. When she entered I heard her high pitch voice, Ina and I hid at the Dining area. When she saw me, first, she got stunned then she saw Ina she was like “OH MY GOD YOU`RE HERE?! YOU DIN`T TELL ME YOU CAME BACK!!!” coz Ina din`t tell people she arrived already from the states, only a few. Like me.

I was on a rush coz I had to pick up Criela and then go to ABS-CBN to watch Lance`s Show, but before I could leave the mom of Jus told me to eat first, so I did. Yummy food I had to leave right away. Couldn`t get any more. *sigh* oh well, then I went on to Eastwood to pick up criela.

When we got to ABS, we were at the other side of where we were supposed to be at. Studio 1. So we walked. Not so far, but I was wearing heals! We called up Lance to go down with our tickets. Hehe. Free-loaders!

We watched the different workshops, Lance was in the opening number and jazz funk, and Alex was in the musical theater since she`s a teacher there already. Oh my god Lance, he`s like more flexible than me… WAY more flexible. Rawr. Haha!

I saw Angel again! And Geo! My old instructors from Hotlegs Dance Group. Now they`ve formed a new group called The G-Force, which`re as good as Hotlegs. `Course coz there`s Angel and Geo. I miss having dance lessons with Angel, he`s a fun trainer. Can be serious, can be hilarious. Hehe. Unlike most uptight choreographers I`ve dealt with in the past.

So after the Show, on our way out of Studio 1, Criela and I started singing random songs like Think of Me from Phantom and some Aida songs, I did some from Wicked. More embarrassment from me coz I was singing the most.

Lance: *hears me sing, turns around and points at my face* I NEED YOU!!

Me: *shocked and weirded out* What the fuck… What?

Lance: Sing later, with me, sa gig sa Kublai`s.

Me: Eeer…

He`s one weird guy. If you`d seen what he did a while ago. Like first he`d be really composed then the next he whirls around with eyes wide and pointing at you like crazy. I agreed at first, then I backed out Hahaha. So we head off to Kublai`s… with Lance`s pick-up truck… hahaha! We rode at the back, real fun but messed up my hair.

We got there, another band was performing. I saw Sandra with a group of friends, and also EA I guess with relatives. Criela and I ate something like cheese sticks… I dunno, haha! Ermm.. yun. Pretty much it. So Free Fall performed, as always we danced to them.

After the whole thing we head off to Starbucks… walking. From Kublai`s to Starbucks was suicide. I was wearing uber heavy heals, I needed to pee and it was just sooo far. It would`ve been ayt if I was wearing chucks or anything BUT heals. But noooo, I wore heals. Oh well. It was still fun.

We chilled for a while till my driver came, Lance left too coz his parents were waiting for him outside. He just waited for us before we got picked up. I dropped off Criela at Eastwood. And now here I am, watching Youtube Video Clips.

I need a life.

Beautiful Love – The Afters

Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

(chorus)
What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love, my beautiful love

Larger than the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine

(chorus)
What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe our love will catch like fire
As it burns through me
(3x)

(chorus)

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
(2x)

My beautiful love
La la la la love
La la la la love

My beautiful
La la la la love
La la la la love

My beautiful love